Fear of the Unknown
Posted by Colston | Labels: Application, Christian, Christian lifestyle, Fear, Unknown | Posted On Thursday, April 15, 2010
Im the type of person who loves change. I like to roll with the flow. I love to do something different. Much of my life has been beyond doing the routine.
At this stage in my life there have been lots of changes in the last two years. I graduated from college. I married the most amazing woman. I moved to Southern California. Im working full time as a youth pastor at a church where God is blessing.
All of this took place in a matter of months.
To be completely honest, I was so excited. All the changes in my life happened really fast and I was ready for them. I didn't know all the answers but hey, who does?!?!
Now that I have been married for a year and half and have been working full time for about the same time, Ive noticed that life hasn't changed much for us. While this is a peaceful thing for my wife, for me its kind of weird.
However in the last couple of months God has opened doors and shut doors and opened them again for us to buy our first place. Owning the keys to our own place is a dream but its gotten extremely interesting in the last month.
While my mind and body is wired for changed and gets gitty about it, there is something stirring in my soul about this transition. Its not that I dont have a peace about the direction we are headed but for whatever reason there is more stress involved in this purchase than in any of the other major life decisions i have made in the past.
There has been a domino effect going on, where one thing after another comes up and it seems that all is dumping on us at once. I know all the verses about God is in control. I know that all I have to do is have faith and trust God. I know all the answers. Knowing all the answers and applying them are two different things.
Even though I know He is in control, these transitions are somewhat scary.
Do you ever feel the same?
Do you have a hard time applying what you know?
Much Love,
Colston
At this stage in my life there have been lots of changes in the last two years. I graduated from college. I married the most amazing woman. I moved to Southern California. Im working full time as a youth pastor at a church where God is blessing.
All of this took place in a matter of months.
To be completely honest, I was so excited. All the changes in my life happened really fast and I was ready for them. I didn't know all the answers but hey, who does?!?!
Now that I have been married for a year and half and have been working full time for about the same time, Ive noticed that life hasn't changed much for us. While this is a peaceful thing for my wife, for me its kind of weird.
However in the last couple of months God has opened doors and shut doors and opened them again for us to buy our first place. Owning the keys to our own place is a dream but its gotten extremely interesting in the last month.
While my mind and body is wired for changed and gets gitty about it, there is something stirring in my soul about this transition. Its not that I dont have a peace about the direction we are headed but for whatever reason there is more stress involved in this purchase than in any of the other major life decisions i have made in the past.
There has been a domino effect going on, where one thing after another comes up and it seems that all is dumping on us at once. I know all the verses about God is in control. I know that all I have to do is have faith and trust God. I know all the answers. Knowing all the answers and applying them are two different things.
Even though I know He is in control, these transitions are somewhat scary.
Do you ever feel the same?
Do you have a hard time applying what you know?
Much Love,
Colston
I would love nothing more than to have a 'peaceful' life but it just doesn't always happen that way. You always think "this is the biggest thing that will happen to me, or this is the most stressful thing that will ever happen to us"...that just isn't so. Things happen all the time and they take their toll on you. Josh and I feel this way all the time and we may momentarily forget that God is in control but once we do realize that God will take care of us everything seems to fall in place after that.
Keep your head up. :)
Well said Colston! It's amazing how verses in the Bible become very difficult to apply when you are actually experiencing them. As you know, knowledge is not depth...application is depth. I'm still struggeling with loving God and loving others.